by the way i forgive you.
For the longest time I always blamed myself for how I felt. I thought it was normal, it was acceptable. I thought it was how things were supposed to go. I thought I was the one who always needed to please you, to follow your rules.
by the way i forgive you.
For making me feel like I was nothing, like I could never do anything right. I tip towed around my own life to make sure yours was perfect. I pushed people away to make sure you were happy, to make sure you wouldn’t be mad. I lost friends because of our toxic relationship. To ensure you were satisfied.
by the way i forgive you.
For pushing me when I wasn’t ready. For pressing me when I didn’t want to. For becoming upset when I finally stood up to you, for the grin that would creep across your face when I would finally gave in. I thought I had to, I thought that was how it worked.
by the way i forgive you.
For ruining my first because I learned what I never want. I learned how I should be treated, how a woman should be treated. I learned how it involves two people, not just dictated by one. I found my one because of how imperfect you were.
by the way i forgive you.
For pushing me down, because I bloomed from our ashes.